I’m currently in an extreme pain cycle (that’s a civilized way of putting it)
It started all because I was trialing an electric scooter 3 days ago under the supervision of an Occupational Therapist. Something that will technically make my life easier but the irony is, the whole exercise has flared the pain of my broken legs beyond belief & it has caused my abdominal muscles to feel as if they have been torn to shreds.
During the trial the scooter tipped slightly on the street corner. I braced myself using my legs & left side of my body. It wasn’t a major incident under normal circumstances but for my body, with a chronic inflammatory disease & broken bones, it resulted in a reaction as if I had been thrown completely off it. At the time I laughed & shrugged off the incident but the next day I honestly felt as if I had been in a boxing ring & I did not come out a winner!
Pain is such a highly personal thing & while we can all relate to varying levels of high pain, we all have very individual reactions to it.
Some people with high level chronic pain withdraw altogether. Some cry, some laugh, some are silent, some sleep, some can’t sleep, some eat, some can’t eat.
Others, like me, tend to talk or write about it. Partly I talk about it because it names it. Writing takes the pain out of my body & puts it into words. It helps me acknowledge it & make changes to my day, week etc to manage it….or to at least think I’m managing it. I also write about my pain to encourage others to feel free to talk about their experiences. After all, “a problem shared is a problem halved” right?
As I muse today about how I’m going to try & move through the week ahead, one thing is certain….I do have pain, it can’t be easily removed but I am as determined as possible to remain joyful. That joy can be in the moment or it can be looking ahead to anticipated joy….a good dose of day dreaming never hurt anyone & it can help me take the focus off pain onto happier things.
Pain takes so much from us, no matter your level of pain, no matter your disease.
I know, believe me I know, it’s not as simple as putting a smile on your face & thinking happy thoughts. It’s definitely not easy. It is like walking through a battlefield, cowering & wondering where the enemy is & where the next attack will be coming from.
Like soldiers though we learn to fight another day. Chonic pain keeps us constantly wounded, all to varying degrees but we don’t want to be defeated. We find ways to reclaim our lives. We find ways to conquer our enemy.
Everyone’s battle is different but every battle story is so inspiring & encouraging. Muse upon your own story & look at what you have achieved despite your pain, with your pain, through your pain. You’ll be amazed to see just how strong you really are!
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