I have just had the night from hell. Pain has soared through every bone, muscle & joint in my body.
I woke from a deep sleep screaming at 2am, causing my husband to jolt upright & run to my side. I couldn’t move any limb. I was rigid with a pain that I am struggling to describe.
Broken. That is the only word that comes close to it. Physically broken.
It was like lying on a bed of nails with bricks placed on top of me & someone standing over me hammering the bricks into my body.
I rarely cry, I didn’t cry last night but I groaned. The pain was too intense to cry.
My husband was again my hero. He made a cup of tea, he sat & chatted with me while we waited for extra pain killers to take the edge off. He loved me through the pain, in the midst of the pain. He was amazing 💗
As I sipped my tea last night I was reminded of a beautiful verse from the Bible;
“Weeping may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning” Psalm 30 v 5
As I mulled over the words of this verse I knew that I would feel joy in the morning. Joy that the night from hell was over. Joy that the sun was shining through my windows. Joy that my morning meds would bring a better level of pain relief.
The thought of that joy to come & knowing that this night of pain & sheer agony would not be forever, brought a sense of calm & hope as I lay back in my bed.
I have woken to sun shining through my window. I do feel joy that the night is over. I can feel my morning meds reducing the severity of my pain. I have laughed with my husband. I have been encouraged by a beautiful post on my support forum, reminding me of one of my favourite hymns:
Despite the pain, in the midst of the pain, joy has come in the morning. My hope was not in vain. It is never in vain.
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